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HateYou hated me so much that now I hate me too.
You succeeded are you fucking happy? There's nothing left of me to love or save yet your son is still trying, still standing there. We can't see each other but he's the only thing keeping me alive and you don't care.
I want to go to somebody anybody and tell them how much I hurt and cry and cut and how it gets me nowhere. I want this to be better. I want you to stop hating me, judging me and lying.
"I'm not trying to sabotage your relationship"
You won't let him see me other than school, let him out of the house except for work and school and you may as well take his phone away too.
I fee

narcissismA long time ago I saw you for the first time
I got interested in you
I discovered you
I grow up watching you
You were always with me
I got attracted to you
I liked you
My feelings grow
And I fell in love with you
I never felt lonely thanks to you
But what should I do?
You are just my reflection...

I likeI like the way the rain falls,
I like to see the sun;
I like to eat ice cream
And I like to have fun.

I like to see the seasons,
I like to smell flowers;
I like to paint pictures
And I like to imagine I have powers.

I like music and movies,
I like to bake;
I like to pet animals,
And I like to eat cake.

I like to see the sun rise,
I like to sleep the whole day through;
But the thing that I like the most
Is to know I met you.

-So Said The Suicide Note"Everything suddenly
Starts fading from my eyes.
The daylight is blurry,
All I can think of is night…
But even the moonlight is lying
As headlights flash before the red

That I keep driving on through.

Oh I just don't know when to stop…
Honey, I'm not sure how to put this,
But today I've given up.

I'm done with holding on.
Truly, I am sorry everyone.

-I won't forget a single one of you-

Today the sun shined extra bright
As if to say,
'You'll be okay.'

But maybe I'm just not
Trying hard enough.

THE SUN WILL SHINE ON."

-So said the suicide note.

Starless NightMurky sky, why do you hide the stars from me
Why must you coat the sky in inky blackness, smudging out those diamonds of the night
Let me see the constellations, oh so dear to me
Give me back the starry sky that lets me remember so much
Let me have my first stars wish, that i do so desire
Bring back my midnight delight, a sky gilded and wrought with light
The city sky, chocked and mired in mans fetid breath
The country night, the air still smells of peace as the winds of man war has not yet reached it, leaving the sky still filled with glittering wants
The suburban sky, here man battles with nature, his death dealing fumes slowly chok

a devil girl on my shoulderI have two little me's that sit on my shoulder,

They have watched me get older and older,

One is naughty while the other nice,

The naughty one likes to scare the other with mice.

When I look in the mirror she whispers to me,

"Why are you so fat and ugly?"

Then the nice one goes,

"But you look lovely to me."

And I sigh knowing the mean one is right,

Thinking I should stay out of sight.

No one should have to see,

someone as ugly and weird as me.

The nice one sighs a deep sad sigh,

Her answer never helping me see,

what I could truly be.

The naughty ones voice always rang clear while the nice one was so quiet it was hard to hear.

TogetherTogether. That's how we had to stay. From the moment it started to go wrong- from the moment I was born… she was there.

I reached out my hand to touch hers, it was cold and dull. I should've felt the tough, wrinkled skin encompassing it, hard from the late years of rough labor she worked to keep us alive. But that's not what I felt. I felt the warmth from her soul, the softness of perfection and the touch of love.

I lifted my gaze to the heart monitor, raised on the stand next to her fragile body. It had a slow, but consistent beat, like the bass of a fading drum.
"You don't have long now." Predicted a mousy looking nurse. I nodded,

monophobiaI get scared
I can't stay alone
I can't be surrounded by darkness
I don't want to let go of you
I see it
I hear it
What is it?
A Hallucination?
It's scary
It's dark
It's cold….
It s hard to breath
I don't want to let go of you
No…I can't let go of you
Who you are?
I don't care…
As long as I m not alone…

RedSip down the whiskey, keep my spirits high,
Watch the room spin, watching time as it passes me by,
I channeled all your pain,
It's making me insane,
I tore my body apart for you,
It's the best I could do,
I tried you only once,
But we danced the dance,
Then I was hooked,
Then my life was booked,
I can't be fixed, not while my emotions are mixed,
So I sit here drunk and perplexed,
Maybe you weren't good, maybe you weren't bad,
But you were the best I ever had.

My HeartMy heart burns.
My heart throbs.
My heart aches.
My heart hurts.
It feels like
It has finally
Given up...

I tried to love,
And it turned out
To be a big mistake.

My heart's broken
Into tiny, thin
Slivers that will
Never be able to
Be mended...

So, I guess I'll
Keep up my shield
And only dream
Of the beautiful
Romance I'll never
Get to see...

My heart's broken.
My heart's gone.
My heart's never
Gonna love.
Now who's to
Blame?
Certainly not me,
'Cause I'm not
The one who
Called the shots...

Before DawnI'm sitting there,
Listening to the news,
He was found dead in a car crash,
Now what am I supposed to do?

He was the reason,
I stayed alive,
I'm probely the reason,
That he died.

I can't handle it,
Not having him around,
It's my worst nightmare yet,
and it's running me into the ground.

I try to smile,
I try to laugh,
I try to be happy,
But I just can't make it last.

I'm done,
My world is gone,
So I'm ending this,
Before dawn

There Is No What IfThere is no what if
She cries to her only son
A twisted reminder of flesh that once loved
She says it again
There is no what if
She carries the stench of despair
In her pockets
And on the frilly duvet
On all the silverware in rows
The dog with his sensitive nose can smell it
He goes around sniffing things
And she yells at him for it
She knows what she does not want to know
And that is what kills it
Like a flesh eating bacteria
It grows
And consumes everything within sight
The four walls are clenching
And clawing at her
Their yellow painted surfaces are a mockery
A brightly hued indecision
There is no what if
Or

Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep (Emo Version)Now I lay me down to die,
I pray the Lord my soul to pry.
If I shall cry before my demise,
I pray the Lord my soul to fry.

Judge MeJudge me not by were I have been
Judge me not by the color of my skin
Judge me not by the clothes I wear or by the way I speak
Judge me not by the scars that mar my skin, from so many a blade kissing my flesh
Judge me not by the ribbon that wraps around my neck, a reminder of what I have done and what I will never do again
Judge me not by the ink that colors my flesh, which tells a story across my skin
I am not defined by things you can see, by things you can hear, by things you can smell
I am made from sterner stuff that you can see, hear, or smell
I am not what you know from the past, a boy stuck in stagnant stinking depression
I a

The PastI'm looking towards the past.
Help me turn away.
The memories are racing fast.
I wish I didn't remember that day…

I'm searching harder for the past.
To make old habits okay.
Help me turn away.
I'm slowly returning to that day

They've made me forget.

I'm looking towards the past.
Help me turn away.
The memories are racing fast.
I wish I didn't remember that day…

I'm searching harder for the past.
To make old habits okay.
Help me turn away.
I'm slowly returning to that day

When suicide was okay.

And I held on in the back of my mind
Without even realizing
And I can't hold my breath no longer
No matter how hard I tr

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by ~GXrocksmysox7, Oct 25, 2012, 3:20:15 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

My thoughts are in colour,
the world in black and white,
the skies grow ever duller
And I often miss the light.

A smile as fake as hair
Love and Life and Dare,
Death and Dreams and Flare,
fingers tug out my hair.

I splash in puddles,
Dance in snow,
And hop along the paths,
To a song only I know.

As red as a rose,
it tickles my nose
and falls towards toes
_dying as it goes.

The music grows louder,
it drowns out the screaming,
their smiles are changing,
the light it is f a d _{i n g,}
from eyes
and minds
and hearts.

And I stand in the rain.
Let it pour over me
my dreams,
my thoughts,
my heart laid bare,
I stand
And weep
And watch
_{the colour run from my hair.}

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I wondered what it would be like to write a poem in five minutes with no forethought... this is what happened.

BTW does anyone know how to get the smaller writing but in a straight line? < sub > lowers it slightly and it annoys the crap out of me -.-

P.s. If you don't already know me and are wondering about the hair thing, my hair's dyed poppy red on top and black underneath.

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~sam-the-drawing-fox Oct 28, 2012

Gosh you did this in five minutes!
I'm extremely jealous of your skill!
I love reading your poems so much. c:

~GXrocksmysox7 Oct 29, 2012 Student Writer

Yep, that's why it makes little sense lol.
Nah I always wanted to do one of these, its surprising what comes out in such a short time O_o
And I love reading your comments my friend, they always brighten up my day XD

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